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Saturday, August 1, 2009 | 11:38 PM
#22 Fears: Ignition of worries.
This is an emo post.
I suddenly have this fear of not able to make it for the promos. My results for mye sucked and with promos being even more difficult, I'm rly worried. I wna end these 2 years quickly and get into a decent uni. Honestly, my confidence level is now probably a 30/100. Maybe I shall just ignore the 15% for mye and focus on the leftover 85%. But considering how badly I've also done for my lecture tests, which is part of CA consisting of 25%, I.really.dk.how.to.carry.on. I think I'm lacking the willpower to persevere and the confidence to overcome my phobias. Did I mention how much I was trembling on fri during math test? I was drawing the graphs with shaking hands I can't even draw a circle properly and I was telling myself to stop shaking. I fear failing tests/exams and the fear of fearing if I can make it for promos. I just can't describe how worried I am now. I'm just so envious how some people can manage everything so well. I hate abandoning life just because of studies I don't think it makes any sense at all.
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Saturday, August 1, 2009 | 11:38 PM
#22 Fears: Ignition of worries.
This is an emo post.
I suddenly have this fear of not able to make it for the promos. My results for mye sucked and with promos being even more difficult, I'm rly worried. I wna end these 2 years quickly and get into a decent uni. Honestly, my confidence level is now probably a 30/100. Maybe I shall just ignore the 15% for mye and focus on the leftover 85%. But considering how badly I've also done for my lecture tests, which is part of CA consisting of 25%, I.really.dk.how.to.carry.on. I think I'm lacking the willpower to persevere and the confidence to overcome my phobias. Did I mention how much I was trembling on fri during math test? I was drawing the graphs with shaking hands I can't even draw a circle properly and I was telling myself to stop shaking. I fear failing tests/exams and the fear of fearing if I can make it for promos. I just can't describe how worried I am now. I'm just so envious how some people can manage everything so well. I hate abandoning life just because of studies I don't think it makes any sense at all.
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